Fine Alone

I feel like i'm all alone today,
all by myself..

But it's fine,
suprisingly,
i'm fine all by myself..

Great, right?

But i hope tommorow's different..

I'm fine, but i prefer having some friends around..

Rethink..

Talking about e-goverment in e-commerce class and watching news & talkshow about recent Situ Gintung tragedy gave me some insight about Indonesian governance.

Knowing that one of the reasons why we're so difficult to grow is because the lack of potential, willing, and honest human resource had put thoughts inside my head.

I, myself, was the example of young citizen who would rather leave the conversation when it leads to goverment topic, then to politics, yada, yada.. It's just not interesting to me.

I believed that the idea of saving the nation was useless, there's no hope for this country, with it's dishonest & stupid authority and the dirty-money politics and stuff..

I'm the kind of person who laughed sarcastically when heard some authorities, or politicians gave their word to the press.
"yea, right.."
"even my hamster could tell that you're lying.."



I believe i have some potential & integrity, but I'd never want to work in the goverment's office.
Why?
Because i gave up my hope,
because i think it's broken and it couldn't be fixed.

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then i thought about it,
somebody has to take care of this country,
someone has to govern this nation somehow..

If all the smart young people think like i did, not willing to work for the country,
then all that's left is the not-so-smart guys who eventually run the goverment just because no one else wants to do it.
Forced not-so-smart people running the country?
It's a formula to disaster.

And i think that's what have been happening here in Indonesia.
Smart students will successfuly work for private international company,
while leaving the not-so-smart one to work in goverment's office.

Ha.

What do you think?
Can we change this?

I think we can,
if we want to..

All of these made me rethinking about my previous thought.

Can i do something to make this country better?

Hmm..
I think i need to refresh my perspective...

"Rachel Getting Married"

Watched "Rachel Getting Married".
it was unique, like watching a home made video about one family.

I think the camera was hand-held.
The conflict was also very real,
The characters bonded well to one another,
it felt real. it really was.

Anne Hatheway played Kim, the girl who just got out of the rehab,
whose sister, Rachel, is getting married. She struggled to keep up with the pace of life she had been left for 9 months in rehab.

Slumdog Millionaire

Hee, i just watched Slumdog Millionaire..
A bit too late, but this Oscar-winning movie was worth my time..

First things that caught my attention was the attractive way of the camera view, it was unsual, yet interesting..
From wide angle that projected the overview of slum area on Mumbai, to the over-zoomed view of the police.. Nice..

Next was the fast-paced switch of time&space dimension..
One minute it was on the present, then the next frame told us about the past.
Interesting..

For the actors : The young Jamal was really cute, the mature one was charming. The other characters were well played..

The scoring was also unique, it fit well to the movie.
The mix of holly & bollywood music was suprisingly catchy. :-D

The movie was fascinating as Jamal went on to explain how he could answer each of the questions on the Who Wants To Be A Millionaire Show.

But it's not the movie for those of you who like nice bubbly pictures.
This is really a movie about a slumdog and his tough life.
It's the movie that tell you that how life can teach you more than school does, often in the hardest way that possible.

The movie still got a little suspence near the end.
It still left the audience a room to think what's gonna happen next..

The one thing that made me giggle the most was the indian dance at the end of the movie..
Ahahaha..
It's still an indian movie after all..
No matter what the movie's about, just dance..:-D

To summarize it up, it's a great unique movie.
It deserves the Oscars..

I Just Realize This..

I just realized this..

Hmm..
I've had couple times being hurted & broken hearted..
I've got much example in my lifehood..
So, to be in that situation, i guess i can say, i'll managed to survive..

But i think i don't have much experience in having long-term relationship,
to love and be loved,
to give and not wanting something back,
to accept and respect each other perfectly..

I've only seen that on movies,
yeah, there's one-two relative of mine that had the fairy tale life,
but i'm not really close to them, unfortunately..

I'm really looking forward to learn how to do all that correctly..

Anyway, I was wondering,
when will i had those kind of experience?
Is my time coming soon?
Is it my turn now?

Oh Dear God,
i sure hope so..
Then i'll be the good example to those around me..
Amin..

-ohWishfulThinking..