sorry

I guess the ball's on me now,
but sorry,
i don't wanna play anymore

sorry,
i dont have time for this,
what are we? five?

sorry,
I'm not in the mood for quarrel,
and i never will be

sorry,
if my maturity make you felt unease

sorry,
yeah,
i'm so sorry for you.

What's Wrong With You (and Me) ?

050808 - 8:35PM



Okay, I might shoved you first at the time,
I might overly put my emotion on my words the other day,
And you might took that more deeper than i thought.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry for the situation.
But to be honest, that's what I felt.
I was really disappointed.

And when you shoved me back,
I tried my best not to roar,
although my mind that time said,
"This kid wants war!"
But, no, I was trying to take the higher road,
I thought, "If what I'm about to say isn't gonna fix the situation, I'd better not say a word"
so I (tried to) shut my mind and heart, trust me it ain't easy,
It almost ruined my whole day,
I might even turn my best friend down..
Damn..

Then, when I thought I cooled down,
I decided not to light the fire,
I didn't want to add some unnecessary thoughts
inside my already (felt like) overloaded mind
I tried to reach out to you,
I tried to apologize, for the sake of my sanity and our relation.
Yet, you shoved me back.
and screamed "back off"
And yes, it hurt. Ouch.

Wow, it sounds like I'm a selfish jerk,
Hix. I slipped i guess.
I'm human too.
Couldn't I make mistakes?

Now I don't know what to do.
Didn't know it would turn out like this.
Guess I'm just gonna back off like you said.
Is this my fault?
What i know is we both hurt.
I don't know what to do, honestly.
I'm so sorry for the hurt.
but I guess it's not that easy to heal..
yours and mine.

Hope God help us find a way out of this mess.
Amin.


-Ddddddaaaaammmmmnnnnnn-

are this how we going to spend the rest of our life?
hating.. well probably not hating, but not caring about each other..?

we might as well leave this one behind
and start creating a new one, a better one instead,
cause -So Help Me God- that's the idea i've been thinking of.

-SometimesIt'sBetterNotToThinkAboutThis-

Relax Time..

just watched "Made Of Honor",
though it doesn't really have enough magic
like a successful romantic comedy movie should have,,
but it still enjoyable,
specially looking at that -Oh-So-Gorgeous- Patrick Dempsey,
hehe.. ;-)

the moral of the movie was..
"The perfect man may not be the perfect one for you"
"never take anyone for granted"
and...
we should hook up with our own best friend..
.
.
.
haha, naaah, i made up that last one..
hehe.



-Relaxed-

bodoh ah..

why do i have sudden urge to have a boyfriend?



hwakakak...



stupid hormones..


-PMS-